No, you really shouldn't have.

But you did, so thanks. (: Heh. I just noticed that I had 5,000+ views so I figured I'd make a note of thanks for that. You guys rock.

I noticed that it had been awhile since I updated this thing. I find it sort of amusing- sadly enough- how much time has been passing since I've been making blogs. One would think that it meant perhaps I finally have found myself a life, but... no. Actually it means I've been sick as usual and sleeping a lot. Sleeping and doing homework because, as previously mentioned, this is my last cycle of the actual schooling portion of college and I'd love to make it impressionable. That, and I don't have an externship yet. I suppose that just reflects on my lack of enthusiasm towards life in general right now. Who knows, but the fact remains that I don't have one and am scrambling to find one that will accept me. I'm checking out a small catering facitity in the South Side district... hopefully that goes through. They seem like a cozy little place, but then again talent is required and I don't quite have that little perk on my side. We'll see, though.

The graduation blues are settling again, as well. Coming to terms with the fact that I am more than likely never going to speak to the people I've lived with, hung out with, cooked with, bullshit with, and generally bickered with for the last year is not settling well with me. Of course it didn't settle well when I left high school for vo-tech school and it certainly didn't settle well when I graduated from the former. I lost contact with pretty much everyone from vo-tech school spared Joe, though I was fortunate enough to keep in contact with my closest friends from high school- if even minimally and via the internet and/or DA- after I left. It seems that this will probably not be the case this time. I wll not be as fortunate as before. Afterall, Culinary arts is one of the most time consuming and tedious fields out there, who on earth is going to have the time to keep in contact with a college buddy when you're working 14-16 hour days? There is one person overall that I'm torn up over- of course you've guessed it already by this point- and that would be Andrew. Naturally. He is my college love, afterall, and I may not have been his but it will still be hard to see him off in the fall. I know we'll never talk to one another again after this extern- possibly even before that. I'm uncertain if the arrangements for me to move in with Ben (a friend of mine that goes here) have hindered Andrew moving in there as well, but in either reguard come October I know for certain that I will probably never speak to or see Andrew again in my life. It's not on my own accord that this will happen because I will certainly call him to see how things are going and I'll probably (more than likely) pose that we hang out when the time permits but, as is his nature, he will ignore me. Perhaps not ignore me but he certainly won't follow through with any posed plans. In fact, he never seems all to keen on following through with ANYTHING and if he does follow through it's only after changing his mind about a dozen (if not more) times.

So, aside from being sick, burrying myself in homework, mulling over graduation blues and the "loss" of guy I've been in love with, there hasn't been too much of interest happening in my life. Hence, no blogs.

Speaking of which, I do believe I'll be off. I have homework and I need to study the information about this establishment for my extern so I can make a good impression when I call.

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